2005
A lady that found hope,peace,joy,security and stillness in the "mess" of her imperfect life!
1988
A lost girl...looking for hope.
She thought when she was pretty,skinny,wealthy,smart,had cooler clothes, accepted by every person... in the ENTIRE world and a man to love her, then after her life was "perfect" then she would find hope...
Recently, someone said to me that I had such such a story...I really understood and appreciated what she was saying and at the same time, I passionately said, "Don't we all!" That right there is exactly why I LOVE to connect to folks of all walks of life. It's in their "stories" that I really get to explore, understand,process,and love another person. Oftentimes, if I'm really opening up within my own heart, I feel what they feel and I get a deeper sense of who they are and where they've been in life.
All of this brings me to a place of acceptance and peace in a world that tries to tell me that I'm not "normal" or that everyone around me has got it "altogether". The only time in my life where I "rested" in thinking that I HAD arrived proved to be one of the hardest, self loathing,prideful times ever. If you had a belief about something I could find a way to show you, (in scripture) why you were wrong and then feel so "sorry" that I had "matured" and you...hadn't! I'm confessing all this because I want to share the joy of freedom from perfectionism! There is NO hope in being "perfect" because it's all a flesh made illusion that only causes pain and destruction in it's wake.
